tak larat dahh..arghhh

sepanjang praktikal nih aku selalu ja stress.. bukan sebab keje je..tp sebab org keliling aku..kadang2 aku rase nak idup sorang ja..tp aku bkn mcm tu..aku suka idup bermasyarakat yg best..bkn masyrakat yg buhsan.. ntah la..sebenarnya aku dah btol2 tak larat nak idup dalam berjaga2..bkn jaga dari terkena tembakan msuh..tp nk kna alert ape yg aku buat supaya hati sumer org terjaga rapi..aku terpikir gak..susah sgt ke nak jaga ati aku..aku rasa senang ja.. senyum ja kat aku setiap kali aku jmpa..aku dah cukup seronok..aku tak suruh pun sumer org buat lawak yg bg aku gelak sampai terguling2..tp kalo dia berjaya buat tu kira bonus mark aku bg..huhuhu
Aku ni pun tak perfect..kadang2 aku sengaja ja wat mende yg org tak suka..bkn kadang2 kot..tp selalu gak la..hehhehee,

sem depan kalo ada tanduk kat ujung pala aku ni la..aku nak cari umah len la.. aku rasa sia2 ja aku wat baik selama ni(konon baik la)..aku nak hargai kawan2 yg btol2 hargai effort aku ja.. aku tak leh nak idup dgn org yg tak reti hargai org.. kalo idup ngan org yg tak reti pujuk aku tak kesah..sebab aku pun tak kuasa pujuk org..wawawaw..tgk tu..jahat la aku ni..

tp aku tau..aku ni cakap ja..stgi bila nak wat mula la tak sampai ati.. mula la nak pikir perasaan org tu..bila pikir balik dia tak wat kat aku cmtu pun..mungkin aku dah dididik cmtu kot n mngkin org2 terlibat tu dah besa idup cmtu kot..sentiasa tada perasaan..aku pun kadang2 kijam gak..tp aku harap pasni aku nak kijam selalu la..wawawawaw..

dah la...aku nak layan feeling jap..b4 that nah baca lirik ni

Mariah Carey - Anytime You Need A Friend

If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember you're not alone
And love will be there
To guide you home

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright

If you just believe in me
I will love you endlessly
Take my hand
Take me into your heart
I'll be there forever baby
I won't let go
I'll never let go

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely
It's alright
It's alright

hoaaaaa

simple but sumtime its a quite tough task today.. my duty for today is prepare extemporenous preparation.. first rx quite easy and getting tougher after tat... arrggghhh.. sooooo tired mehhh
tomorrow will be my last day at opd..im going to tpn..hehehe can't wait but a lil bit worry.

tonite actvt...hurrmmm.. there is a soccer game and their feast with kompang.. a game between penang and perlis... slow game.. tp jdi lee.. free ticket..hehehe.. for infomation, i watch it from my house..hehhehe so lucky to rent dis flat... good news.. penang juz score.huhuh.. ok la dis game actually..huhuhu

what else to write... another thing, tonite i juz did an unbelievable thing i've never imagine to do so..juz keep it secret to myself...my brain secret..huhuhuu

new life nih

tahun nih aku dah start praktikal..dunia kerja ni memang lain.. aku suka lagi belajar dari kerja..huhuhu.penat sangat..kerja dah la tak duduk..kematu kaki aku.

sebab buhsan lepas balik kerja.. aku pun dengan machonye sewa tv..rm 30 sebulan.. ye la, lepas kerja tada aktiviti..aktiviti berhibur la jawabnye.

pastu..tak cukup terhibur..aku pun langgan maxis broadband.. rm138 sebulan..hhuuu.. hiburan punye pasal, aku sanggup ikat perut..

pasni aku nak cari idea lagi untuk tambah duit plak..wahwahwah

nak wat comeback le nih

dekat setahun aku tak sign in blog.. bukan la malas.. tapi tada kesempatan. Pasni dah nak gi Penang untuk latihan praktis untuk setahu.. Kalo ada duit lebih nak pasang streamyx kat umah sewa..buleh tulih blog selalu..kalo tak diari pun boleh la.

Next year dah bertukar ke alam pekerjaan.. takut sebenarnya.. pasni tak leh main2..uwaaa.. nak jadi kanak2. makan tdo makan tdo..kan senang..hehe.. Tapi xpa la..aku kena gak cuba..nak jadi berani sket la.. aku pun bukannya makin muda

Bulan disember nih memang menarik.. bercuti ngan family kat damai laut..annual vacation.. cam besa aku jadi menteri pelancongan..uruskan penginapan.. macam2 prob nak cri otel.. tp akhirnya alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan lancar..

to 2008.. wait for me..

student life..lalalla

dah 3 minggu start klas...ishish..ntah hape2 ntah IT room kat kolej..ada ka patut block friendster n myspace..langsung tak leh nak guna...pc tu untuk buat assignment ja..ada ka patut.

Sem ni dah start buat ubat sitotoksik dah..dah macam ke bulan uniform nak masuk dalam preparinng room..aku yg pakai spek nih lagi la kesian..kelabu spek mata..ishish..tatau la exam nanti camne..

minggu ni shiba bawak balik syringe banyak2..nak praktis pegang syringe guna teknik tanpa sentuh..terketar2 aku tarik syringe ari tu...ketat jugak... tapi kena banyak2 praktis..nak buat ubat sito tak leh memain..nanti terdedah dengan kanser..kena la serius sket pas ni.

dalam minggu ni memang byk stress nye..smalam present case study pasal gout... terketar2 aku waktu soal jawab.. dah la kna guna english..merapu ja aku jawab.. soklan sumer susah2..mana la aku tau nak bagi ubat aper sebagai alternatif..mengarut la aku kat depan tu.. sebab tu aku pass soklan kat group member yg lain..huhuhuh bijak2

isnin ni shiba bawak keta baru..viva..waaaah bestnye nak gi kolej naik kete baru..hhuuhu pape pun jgn aku yg jadik driver dah lew.huhu

Dah bis cutiii..

Esok dah nak balik kolej..cuti dah abis.. So hari ni aku beria beli barang untuk bawak kat rumah baru..huhuh dah ada rumah dah..tapi sewa ja la..nanti la aku amik gamba rumah..cantek sangat..ada banyak pokok lalang aku tanam..wawawawaw..

Nih lah hasil barang2 aku beli..abis duit mak aku kerjakan..huhuhu




Nih nak kuruskan muka la kunun nih beg nak bawak gi klas..
Kak yati n hani kongsi..



Nih utk..ntah le nih la tempat tido aku nanti


Nih la barang nak bawak esok....

Hari isnin dapat ler result..riasu nye..takut gak kalo terlalu drop..jangan lupa..wish me luck always and always..

percutian saat akhir..yeyy

Selasa lepas, aku, ayah, mak n kak yati dapat pergi jalan-jalan.. hehehe..Takdela best sangat, pergi KL..tu pun sebab ayah ada hal kat sana. Macam biasa kami kena bermalam dekat rumah kak ida, kak yang and abang..Baru adil..

Malam pertama terus pergi rumah kak ida. Sesat dekat klang..aku la yang drive sampai sesat tu..langsung kena marah..huhuhu..Malam tu amanina n amalia tido dengan kami kat bawah.. lasak bebudak tu. Esok pagi2 buta ayah pergi putrajaya..maleh nak ikut..layan tido lagi syok.

Malam kedua plak tido rumah kak yang..Dapat main dengan syauqina..esok pagi pulak kena pergi KL sebab ayah nak pergi kementrian.Pagi2 dah nak keluar..sian syauqina..dia buat perangai tanak bangun tido..dia nak dok umah dengan kami..dia cakap nak duduk dengan auntie..tapi kami dah nak kena bertolak..sian dia..lama2 dia bangun jugak..tapi muka masam ja..

Lepas tu kami pergi PWTC..Lepas selesai kerja ayah kami trus gi sopink sakan..Syoknyee.. Sebab taknek jem..kami pergi naik LRT..pergi SOGO..tengah sale la katakan.Sempat ayah belikan kasut kat aku dua pasang..wawawawawa sonotnye..

Nih lew kasut nak gi klas..waaa riaknyeee.



Lepas dah bis sopink pergi rumah abang..lalu ikut terowong smart..memang panjang,,sesak napas pasal panjang sangat..tapi tak jem..sebab kena bayar rm 2..tak ramai yang lalu. Malam tu hani, kak yati, mak n aina pergi tesco..pandai plak cari jalan sendiri..huhuu ain tak ikut sebab hwork tak siap..sian dier nangis sambil buat hwork..kami dah suruh dia buat cepat2..tapi asyik nak cakap jaa..langsung tak siap kerja..huhuuh

Esok tu kami pun balik.. Yang paling best..ayah tetiba ja nak bawak pergi bukit fraser..Syok jugak..kat atas tu sejuk..tapi tak sesejuk dekat kundasang sabah..kat cameron pun sejuk la berbanding bukit fraser,,ayah siap suruh kami amik gamba..nih la first time pergi sana.

bagi ikan makan...nyum nyum

Hari sabtu lepas aku pergi lake bagi ikan makan dengan kak ida, abg ajib n anak2 sedara yg nakal2 ..Kami bagi roti empat segi yang dah expired ja..Tengah bagi makan...tetiba ja ada orang lain datang bawak roti sandwich bagi kat ikan..rupa2 ikan tu suka lagi dekat roti sandwich berbanding dengan roti kami bagi..tapi..Amanina beria-ria jugak baling roti pat segi dengan sepenuh hati..sian tgk kat dia sebab roti dia bagi tak laku..huhuhu..tapi dia bukan tau pun.

Lepas bagi makan ikan Amanina tarik kak ida n cakap "mama..jom la pegi see lake garden..tadi mama cakap nak pergi see lake garden..kakak nak masuk see lake garden." penat kami xplain kat dia yang kita sekarang nih memang kat lake garden..dia tak paham2..Lepas tu dia cakap plak."mama kakak nak tgk alex" aku punya la blur..rupanya alex tu singa dalam madagascar..dia nak masuk zoo rupanya..kami kelentong dia kata alex tido..kena tunggu atuk balik baru alex jaga.. dia pun terpedaya la..sian kat dia lagi skali..,huhu.

Malam tu pulak dia tanya kat kak ida.."mama bibik tidur rumah opah ke"..kalau bibik ada kat rumah opah dia nak duduk kat rumah opah tanak balik klang.. sian kat die.. nanti bulan 10,11 n 12 bibik balik indon..kak ida hire aku jadik babysitter..gaji bibik dapat kat aku..wawwawawaw pokcik kayo.. Buat masa sekarang nih aku tolong udin isi tanah dalam polybag..nak 5000 poly bag..satu poly bag pakcik azmi bagi seposen..bayang kan kalo aku isi 2000 bag..tak ke dapat 200..huuu..hari ni ja dah berjaya isi 200..dah 20 hengget.. sonot nye walaupun sikit.. at last..wish me luck as always..yieeeha



Ni Amanina waktu main..tapi dia main tipu tuuu

Dah seminggu terlepas nak tulis..asyik bizi dengan jalan-jalan je. Hari ni pagi-pagi pergi jalan-jalan dekat taiping. Pergi beli barang dapur. Ayah pergi terengganu. Masa father`s day hari tu kami beli baju kat ayah..terharu sangat sebab ayah bawak baju tu pergi terengganu skali..huhuu ingatkan ayah dah lupa pasal baju tu. Kak yati sibuk dengan nak buat pinjaman mara. Harap-harp dapat la..boleh hani tolong dia meniaga kedai runcit.. Tak sabar nak tunggu bulan sembilan nih.. lama tak jumpa dengan kak ina, abg sahar dan yg paling best nak jumpa aqilah.. Mesti dia takmau kat kami..mesti dia malu-malu..huhuu tapi mana tau nkot dia nak plak sebab slalu tengok dia on9

Benda paling penting nak buat hari ni ialah nak melawat rumah subjek..risau nanti nak cakap apa ngan diorang. Nanti nampak macam tak pro plak..tapi kami memang tak pro pun.huhuhu ape pun as usual wish me luck.

lalallaksa + stress

Hari ni aku ngan kak yati masak laksa..memang syok sebab leh makan banyak2 bila buat laksa sendiri. Video elektif pun tadi separuh jalan siap..tak boleh nak terus menerus buat..fenin pala...Bila pikir pasal elektif je trus stress. Masalah elektif sekarang ni ialah tada sefahaman. Tatau camna nak cakap kat yang lain. Aku ni asyik stress ja bila pikir kena kutip data. yang lain plak nak buat tesis. Mesti bahagia tak payah nak jumpa subjek2 tu. Ntahla..kadang2 terasa cam kena paksa ja..Bagi aku tak payah bahagi2, tesis tu leh buat hari2, jumpa subjek cuma 2 kali sebulan. Aku pun maleh nak gaduh.. Buat ja la. Karang diorang kata aku memberontak pulak..Yang pasti aku dah tanak masuk campur hal2 nak buat tesis..Biarlah selffish pun selffish la. Nanti2 la aku slow talk ngan yang lain...wish me luck!!

Finally

Akhirnyaa....jumpa jugak blog ni..dah lama cari.tu yang aku post blog kat friendster ja.Tadi baru ja lepas post blog kat friendster..dah tada idea nak post plak.
Secara summary nye la ye,Untuk tahun 2007 nih, memang bermula dgn best, pegi bercuti kat manyak tempat..hehehe...takdela banyak sgt, gi sabah, gi pd..lg hmm tak ingat la..tapi best la.

Sekarang nih aku dah nak masuk sem 4. Masa final sem 3 ari tu aku rasa cam tak konfiden ja dengan exam aku..tp syukur alhamdulillah, aku tak kena panggil untuk repeat paper..Lega betul perasaan time tu..rasa nak terjun dari helikopter, pastu terbang kat langit..tapi bila fikir balik, aku nih penggayat budaknye..huhuhuhu

Hari ni punyer citer lagi best, cam besa pegi menum teh ais..hhuhuu..memang berbaloi..Pastu mak belikan baju kurung baru, abg pun ada belikan kain.. bergaya sakan la aku pasni..

Citer terbaru aku..sekatang nih tgh konon2nya diet..dengan kak yati skali..tetipa petang main badminton..makan pun kurang..tapi menum teh ais terlebey..memang tak menajdi..huhuh..tapi aku mesti diet gak..mak dah belikan majalah rapi diet (aku yang paksa sebenarnya),tu kira semangat mak bagi..
so aku kena wat betul2. so wish me luck

Nih gamba percutian..saja nak riak..wakakakka

start again

dah lama tak blog...after stpm ari tu trus keje...adik plak asyik konker je pc..semua org tak dapek bertenet. Bulan ni sedikit terseksa..gastrik menyerang..malam2 tak dapat tido.Makan pulak dah kena kontrol...no more spice..oh nooo...kecewa bangat..sekarang ni dah further study kat rcmp...amik farmasi..suka juga belaja farmasi nih...tapi nanti keja tatau la suka ke tak.Pasrah je...ikutkan hati nak amik something yang fun...macam designer ke...tp takpa la...biar masa tentukan...keh la...dah kena sound plak...bising ja minah sorang ni..nanti malam sambung la

smoking??? no way

Hari ni ntah hari ke berapa tah dah posa.Lepas posa raya lak.Walaupun posa tak cukup 30hari, tapi baju raya mesti cukup 30 pasang.Baru la raya namanya.Hari ni aku buat mende jahat, locked movie channel kat astro..bila ada org tu tanya, aku ngaku la dgn slambanya..Sebenarnya nak je sound dia psl smoking dlm rumah ni.Kalau nak duduk rumah org skalipun..pandai2 la bawak diri tu..Kami adik-beradik dah dibesarkan oleh ayah yg bukan perokok..Tetiba je org ni dtg tinggal kat sini dgn selamba ja membebaskan asap beracun ..Marah mmg marah.Tapi nak buat macam mana..kita ni kecik lg berbanding dia..Apa2 pun, aku pelik dgn sikap2 perokok nih.sepatutnya kita sediakan taman2 khas utk mereka merokok sesama mereka...kalo merokok kat public,jgn setakat denda je,apa salahnya kita penjarakan org2 ni sebulan dua.Bukan tak boleh merokok,Tapi dah ada undang2 supaya jgn rokok dekat tpt public..So hormat je la.Kalo sita terus pengimportan rokok, mesti ramai la jejaka2 kat mesia ni hilang kejejakaan nya.Huh..apa nak jadi la..Rasa2nya lepas rokok naik harga, maka ramailah pencopek atau peragut bersiri yg carik duit lebih utk dptkan rokok..ketagih.. Yang dah berkeluarga tu pulak rela habiskan duit beli rokok, susu n pampers tolak ke tepi..Kalau mampu takpe la..Kalau tak...hmmm.. Harap2 org mesia ni cpat2 la insaf.kalau nak rokok tu sebatang sehari dah la... jgn la sampai sekotak..So ubah la diri anda sebelum anda diubah menjadi tuuuuuuuuuuuuuut.

makan day

Today ada jamuan kelas..makan..makan..makan.best, tukar2 hadiah.Dapat hadiah jam dinding. cam kelakar, tapi tak kisah,hadiah unik.Lepas habis jamuan semua pakat nak tapau. berebut-rebut..klaka..klaka.Amik gamba for the last time to be classmates.Harap2 lepas ni kalau dpt further on study kengkawan pun mesti best.kalo tak,keciwa la jawabnya.Anyway apa2 yg baik patut di teruskan.Malam nih letih la sesangat,rasa nak tido awal tp dah 3kali miss drama tru calling..Smallville season 5 pun dah release kelmarin..best.so kepada peminat2 smallville jgn ketinggalan mamuat turun season nih punya episod..nak beli pun buleh..tapi lbt lg la jwbnya

quote of the day:

Each Choice

Jigme Lingpa

As the eagle soars in the endless blue,
Its shadow races after it, far below.
Yet space does not divide: bird and shadow
are linked. So too each act—each choice
and consequence.

lovely day

Humble Love

Jean Vanier

My heart is transformed by the smile of trust given by some people who are terribly fragile and weak. They call forth new energies from me. They seem to break down barriers and bring me a new freedom.

It is the same with the smile of a child: even the hardest heart can’t resist. Contact with people who are weak and who are crying out...is one of the most important nourishments in our lives. When we let ourselves be really touched by the gift of their presence, they leave something precious in our hearts.

As long as we remain at the level of “doing” things for people, we tend to stay behind our barriers of superiority. We ought to welcome the gift of the poor with open hands. Jesus says, “What you do for the least of my brothers, you do for me.”

More Than Words

Extreme

from Pornograffiti

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Happy day

Bestnye ari ni..semua best la..td jln kaki balik dari skool..tetiba hujan.. fuh, apa lagi pekena teh ais la baru ngancam.Malam ni macam biasa tgk la citer filipina.As usual everyone are so emotional about this drama..Hmm tak tahu la kenapa..nampaknya pengarah tu dah betul2 berjaya mengemosionalkan semua org. bukan citer ni je,citer lain pun sama jugak
Bad things that happened to me today..a fight with my best friend. best friend, best friend gak, tapi when he started to say something about my good girlfriend..thats makes me mad..huh
i hope this feeling to a best friend is normal..ye la,no one is perfect, so trust no one..

ok..its already past my bedtime..esok sure sleepy dlm kelas..its ok,dah biasa dah.

quote of the day:

What can be added to the happiness of a man who is in health, out of debt, and has a clear conscience?

miss 3 days...

Hari ni dpt manyak result trial...ade gak yg ok..tp still ade yg ko.. dah 3 hari tak tulis.. hari ni tak nak bagi quote la..rasa macam nak berpuisi pulak...

You'll never know how much your smile lights up the room or your laughter fills my soul, making all the little problems of the day disappear. You'll never know how much it means to me when you do or say something thoughtful and totally unexpected — usually just at the moment I need it most. You'll never know how much pride I hold in my heart for the person you are and the things you do — for your strength and your gentleness, your courage and your determination, your accomplishments and your dreams. You'll never know how much I need you by my side — in the best of times and the worst of times and all the times in between. It really doesn't matter where we are or what we're doing, as long as we're together to share it all. I love you with all my heart and soul. You'll never know how much.

poem ni di ambil dari laman web www.BlueMountain.com
greeting kad kat web tu semuanya sweet...:)

friendship

	We've Been Friends for Such a Long and Lovely Time
	There is no friend like the old friend who has shared our morning days, No greeting like his welcome, no homage like his praise; Fame is the scentless sunflower, with a gaudy crown of gold; But friendship is the breathing rose, with sweets in every fold.
	- Oliver Wendell Holmes

I'm so glad we're friends!

A new start

hmmm...today is my first time writing this blog... the reason i create my own blog??? maybe for fun...or maybe to share my personal life...i hope so
Firstly about my life...i love music,football and some movies... but for now i prefer listening
music...people out there..if u think that you are in stress moment,try listen to ur fav music...
and try to understand the meaning of the song that u love to hear..its really fun to do.. trust
me..its really help me
oklah...penat gak tulis dlm bi nih...grammar lari pun hantam sajala labu..tak salah mencuba..
maybe for next time i'll write more...sekarang nih nak tgk drama filipina..best sgt drama nih..
tapi tak tau la kurun bila nak abis plak..pasrah... :p

Quote of the day:

"Experience is that marvelous thing that
enables u to recognize a mistake when u make it again"